The New Year

Edith Pierce once said, “We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity, and its first chapter is New Year’s Day”.

On New Year’s Day is the time when one starts to make resolutions. It has always been one man’s habit, to break them all the way through the year, and having regrets in the end. I’ve been one of them too. So, this year, I’m might not make any resolutions, to end up starting old habits the next weekend. This would most likely to happen since I’m very good in procrastinating.

It’ll be the moment one expects and hope that things will be different and better. Keep in mind that you should also be grateful, with what you have, that brought you who you are today. And so what if things go bad, out of your expectations? You can’t run away, and hide; you won’t be able to turn back time. All you’ve got to do is stand, right where you’re at and discover your adventures; as life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, but learning to dance in the rain. Be creative, take the risk and accept disappointment.

And for those who have lived the last year in tragedy and disappointment, cheer up, as you’re here today, given a chance to make things right.

Everyone, I wish you have a Happy New Year 2010.

My New Year’s resolution?

“To tolerate fools more gladly, provided this does not encourage them to take up more of my time” - by James Agate

Just Maybe

Sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs.

How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.

Being lonely, being alone, for many people...sucks; but still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are is worse.

Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.

Maybe a happy ending doesn't include someone, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future.

And maybe the happy ending is just moving on.

Or maybe the happy ending is this; knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

Two Simple Words

I believe that there would be a moment in your life, when you’d feel everything that surrounds you is slowing down as your mind is focused on a particular matter. Soon, it occurred in your thoughts, about what’s happening around and you hear the people around you making conversations and when you close your eyes, all you could hear is people talking sluggishly as if they were whispering right into your ears. As you get deeper into your thoughts, you’ll feel as if everyone stopped moving and talking and you can feel the silence. At that moment the hasty idea of doing something and the decisions you have to make comes to mind and haunt you. To make things complicated, it’s only for you to make out if it’s right or wrong; if it’s good or bad…

It amazes me somehow that people can talk trash about you when they don’t even know you. It’s like they have fallen to have interest, to desire awareness of other people’s business. Or a form of defending themselves from destroying their reputation, and leave you behind, fighting for integrity, hoping that the truth prevails.I can’t relate with anything and I can’t tolerate why these people has that kind of mentality. It’s just too much. Well, I tried to put up with these people, but I guess they won’t learn.

Dennis Wholey once wrote; ‘Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person, is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian?’

And so I’ve made my call. I’ll be leaving…

Get Me Gone

Hey, I’m back after so long from the silent treatment. I’ve been working and having these rather abnormal working hours. It has been a remarkable experience with the work I have now. I meet lots of typical and strange people, but all I can say is that they’ll never be another one, the same.

After the Chinese New Year break, everyone has left, again. My friend Benjamin was around to celebrate the festival, as he had a week off from work. This year’s celebration was a quiet one for most of us, especially during this recession period, but for those who did not get affected, that wouldn’t be a problem celebrating.

Work has been like hell; I’m not complaining, but somehow the clients really do get on your nerves. I don’t have the foggiest thoughts, about these people, like what do you really want? But it has been fun, meeting people despite the urge to disperse eccentric people out of the universe.

Life has been hectic; there will not be a time when I could consider myself resting, on a beautiful Sunday, because I might be at work, on a Sunday! What's more, I can’t even say a ‘Yes’ if a friend ask me out as I might finish work late. So, I could say, I’ve been minimizing time to mingle around with friends.

Well, I guess that’s how life is… like hell!

Wish I could take a day off, and get out of this place while I have the time.

Seriously… I need this!

An Inspirational Moment

Today is the first day of the Year 2009. It’s a beginning of another journey that will bring you to another chapter of life; to advance towards maturity, and take last year as an example; a lesson learnt for do’s and don’ts.

It was a touching moment, that some person I knew back 2 years ago, came up to me and said, ‘You’re a good guy, you tend to help people, you patch things up between me and my wife, but when you’re in trouble, it’s as if you don’t know who to look up for to talk to…’ . And the both of them started to recall what happened and how things were way before I got them back together.

I was speechless, in fact, what he had said was true.

I guess it’s just who I am; keeping my troubles and tribulations I encounter to myself. Just so people would think I’m okay when I’m not, and to keep them from thinking about me and sympathizing at the same time.

Just way back then, I had someone to talk to and share. Didn’t expect it was hard to have a mutual understanding when we ourselves had problems, and it ended just like that. Not to mourn about the past, I’m just recalling those good moments in my life.

Then again, I hope this year would be a better one, not only for me, but my friends and family too.

P/s: JC; Thanks for the inspirational words, it just made me to step forward and to look at the bright side of the world. God Bless!

One More Night

We’re in the midst of the end of Year 2008; it was an immense experience to have gone through this year, but it builds your will to move ahead, and not grieve over the past but to look forward for the future.

As Hal Borland once wrote; Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.

We can’t expect, or predict, but there’s always hope…

Happy New Year 2009!

A Life Less Ordinary

There are thoughts, that I’m having in my mind. I can’t even think of the right word to express how I really feel. It’s one of those days when I really need my friends by my side, but there were not. Well, I can’t expect everyone would stand-by for you, and be right here when you need them the most.

I had to deal with everything alone instead…

I can’t comprehend, why life is so unfair? You’re living in a beautiful world, with magnificent views like the sunset, the stars in the evening sky, but in reality, everything you’ve been thru was a lie.

It was fake

What is this all about?