Two Simple Words

I believe that there would be a moment in your life, when you’d feel everything that surrounds you is slowing down as your mind is focused on a particular matter. Soon, it occurred in your thoughts, about what’s happening around and you hear the people around you making conversations and when you close your eyes, all you could hear is people talking sluggishly as if they were whispering right into your ears. As you get deeper into your thoughts, you’ll feel as if everyone stopped moving and talking and you can feel the silence. At that moment the hasty idea of doing something and the decisions you have to make comes to mind and haunt you. To make things complicated, it’s only for you to make out if it’s right or wrong; if it’s good or bad…

It amazes me somehow that people can talk trash about you when they don’t even know you. It’s like they have fallen to have interest, to desire awareness of other people’s business. Or a form of defending themselves from destroying their reputation, and leave you behind, fighting for integrity, hoping that the truth prevails.I can’t relate with anything and I can’t tolerate why these people has that kind of mentality. It’s just too much. Well, I tried to put up with these people, but I guess they won’t learn.

Dennis Wholey once wrote; ‘Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person, is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian?’

And so I’ve made my call. I’ll be leaving…

Get Me Gone

Hey, I’m back after so long from the silent treatment. I’ve been working and having these rather abnormal working hours. It has been a remarkable experience with the work I have now. I meet lots of typical and strange people, but all I can say is that they’ll never be another one, the same.

After the Chinese New Year break, everyone has left, again. My friend Benjamin was around to celebrate the festival, as he had a week off from work. This year’s celebration was a quiet one for most of us, especially during this recession period, but for those who did not get affected, that wouldn’t be a problem celebrating.

Work has been like hell; I’m not complaining, but somehow the clients really do get on your nerves. I don’t have the foggiest thoughts, about these people, like what do you really want? But it has been fun, meeting people despite the urge to disperse eccentric people out of the universe.

Life has been hectic; there will not be a time when I could consider myself resting, on a beautiful Sunday, because I might be at work, on a Sunday! What's more, I can’t even say a ‘Yes’ if a friend ask me out as I might finish work late. So, I could say, I’ve been minimizing time to mingle around with friends.

Well, I guess that’s how life is… like hell!

Wish I could take a day off, and get out of this place while I have the time.

Seriously… I need this!

An Inspirational Moment

Today is the first day of the Year 2009. It’s a beginning of another journey that will bring you to another chapter of life; to advance towards maturity, and take last year as an example; a lesson learnt for do’s and don’ts.

It was a touching moment, that some person I knew back 2 years ago, came up to me and said, ‘You’re a good guy, you tend to help people, you patch things up between me and my wife, but when you’re in trouble, it’s as if you don’t know who to look up for to talk to…’ . And the both of them started to recall what happened and how things were way before I got them back together.

I was speechless, in fact, what he had said was true.

I guess it’s just who I am; keeping my troubles and tribulations I encounter to myself. Just so people would think I’m okay when I’m not, and to keep them from thinking about me and sympathizing at the same time.

Just way back then, I had someone to talk to and share. Didn’t expect it was hard to have a mutual understanding when we ourselves had problems, and it ended just like that. Not to mourn about the past, I’m just recalling those good moments in my life.

Then again, I hope this year would be a better one, not only for me, but my friends and family too.

P/s: JC; Thanks for the inspirational words, it just made me to step forward and to look at the bright side of the world. God Bless!

One More Night

We’re in the midst of the end of Year 2008; it was an immense experience to have gone through this year, but it builds your will to move ahead, and not grieve over the past but to look forward for the future.

As Hal Borland once wrote; Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.

We can’t expect, or predict, but there’s always hope…

Happy New Year 2009!

A Life Less Ordinary

There are thoughts, that I’m having in my mind. I can’t even think of the right word to express how I really feel. It’s one of those days when I really need my friends by my side, but there were not. Well, I can’t expect everyone would stand-by for you, and be right here when you need them the most.

I had to deal with everything alone instead…

I can’t comprehend, why life is so unfair? You’re living in a beautiful world, with magnificent views like the sunset, the stars in the evening sky, but in reality, everything you’ve been thru was a lie.

It was fake

What is this all about?

Obscure Thoughts

It has been quite a while since we really talk and shared. Apart from having a mutual understanding, you’ve been one of the people who really listen when I talk. Thanks for listening; it really helps to actually talk about my tribulations and dilemma.

It’s really touching somehow, when you listen to someone, and it actually makes you depressing and end up deep in agony, especially someone whom you really care about. Yet at times you don’t know how to respond, because you might end up saying things that will actually upset them rather than making them feel any better.

I hope you’ll be strong, as I’m always around to support you like you’ve supported me all this while.

You’ll never know, a smile put up on your face on any other day, would please your friends and the people around you. Apart from you being strong, it sends me a message that you’re feeling heavenly blissful, and it’ll eventually make my day.

Like watching a rainbow in the sky; it's as spectacular as you are!

Knowing Me, Knowing You

I presume it’s hard to find someone who understands you well enough to share what or how you feel; whether you’re being happy or down. For even your very own best friend, wouldn’t be able to reflect how and what is that you’re feeling. It is already difficult to express, and to say ‘Yes, I understand…’ is easier to be said than to really try and understand someone.

But I know someone that I will treasure every moment we talk…

I was looking forward to see a friend last weekend. We’ve been keeping in touch on MSN ever since she went abroad to study, and to know that she’s back for the holiday break excites me. She’s one of my friends that I love to talk to, and to share what I’m going thru in my everyday life. She listens and don’t jump unto conclusions. That’s what matters most. Even if she’s not a good advisor, I don’t mind that as long as she listens. Thankfully she’s a very good advisor and even when you’re down, she could really make you feel great and you’ll be saying ‘It’s not the end of the world, why should I torture my mind now?’ And so, she was dancing with her group of friends on the dance floor. Yet she still didn’t notice I was just around the corner. I felt the urge to just shout and like ‘OMG!!!!!’, but that’ll be so embarrassing.

I’m truly excited that Inessa is back! And yes, hopefully we’d get to catch up again pretty soon and I’d feed her all the ‘Kon Lau Mien’ she’s been missing…