Just Maybe

Sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs.

How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.

Being lonely, being alone, for many people...sucks; but still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are is worse.

Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.

Maybe a happy ending doesn't include someone, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future.

And maybe the happy ending is just moving on.

Or maybe the happy ending is this; knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

Two Simple Words

I believe that there would be a moment in your life, when you’d feel everything that surrounds you is slowing down as your mind is focused on a particular matter. Soon, it occurred in your thoughts, about what’s happening around and you hear the people around you making conversations and when you close your eyes, all you could hear is people talking sluggishly as if they were whispering right into your ears. As you get deeper into your thoughts, you’ll feel as if everyone stopped moving and talking and you can feel the silence. At that moment the hasty idea of doing something and the decisions you have to make comes to mind and haunt you. To make things complicated, it’s only for you to make out if it’s right or wrong; if it’s good or bad…

It amazes me somehow that people can talk trash about you when they don’t even know you. It’s like they have fallen to have interest, to desire awareness of other people’s business. Or a form of defending themselves from destroying their reputation, and leave you behind, fighting for integrity, hoping that the truth prevails.I can’t relate with anything and I can’t tolerate why these people has that kind of mentality. It’s just too much. Well, I tried to put up with these people, but I guess they won’t learn.

Dennis Wholey once wrote; ‘Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person, is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian?’

And so I’ve made my call. I’ll be leaving…

Get Me Gone

Hey, I’m back after so long from the silent treatment. I’ve been working and having these rather abnormal working hours. It has been a remarkable experience with the work I have now. I meet lots of typical and strange people, but all I can say is that they’ll never be another one, the same.

After the Chinese New Year break, everyone has left, again. My friend Benjamin was around to celebrate the festival, as he had a week off from work. This year’s celebration was a quiet one for most of us, especially during this recession period, but for those who did not get affected, that wouldn’t be a problem celebrating.

Work has been like hell; I’m not complaining, but somehow the clients really do get on your nerves. I don’t have the foggiest thoughts, about these people, like what do you really want? But it has been fun, meeting people despite the urge to disperse eccentric people out of the universe.

Life has been hectic; there will not be a time when I could consider myself resting, on a beautiful Sunday, because I might be at work, on a Sunday! What's more, I can’t even say a ‘Yes’ if a friend ask me out as I might finish work late. So, I could say, I’ve been minimizing time to mingle around with friends.

Well, I guess that’s how life is… like hell!

Wish I could take a day off, and get out of this place while I have the time.

Seriously… I need this!